Dark Corners

I used to be really attracted to very emotional roles. They would help me to express all the shit going on in my mind and soul. But since I've done a lot of self-healing through Abraham, I am not needing these dark expressions as much. I used to be so anxious that I couldn't walk down the street without thinking about all the possible ways I could be killed. Life always felt so delicate, and I was constantly fretting and worrying about my loved ones. But since learning Abraham's message, it's like this incredible fog was lifted off of my mind, and I think so clearly now. I no longer go through life worrying, and I feel much more secure in the KNOWING that we are all eternal. I mean, I was raised Catholic so I "knew" that, but I didn't KNOW it.

So what does this mean for my acting? Well, I think it means a healthier approach to it. And a new era. Sure, I might not gravitate so much to the dark stuff, but I also have more confidence in my abilities because I am more sane now. So that will be much better for my acting. And I can still enter the world of the imagination, it just means that I won't be living in my imagination off stage. I guess part of me does worry that I won't be as good an artist if I am not tortured. But my life certainly is loads better. And isn't that the important part? And I think my worry is bull shit. I think I most certainly can be as good an artist, if not better.

And at the corner stone of Abe's teachings is the fact that we can all create our reality through our thoughts by telling a new story. So maybe I need to just start telling the story about how ever since I got happier, my acting got even better.

Isn't it funny how some artists resist happiness for the sake of their art? You'd think the only reason anyone does anything, is because they think it'll make them happy. So why do some artists make art if happiness is not their purpose?